letter to self

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What are you doing with your life? Are you truly happy or even content with everything? You have been dating the same guy for 15months. At least on and off. Yes, you guys keep getting pulled back to one another, but come on now. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life doing that. Never really knowing what is next for you guys.. if you can make to that next marker.

Yes, you love him. And he may very well love you just as much as you love him.. but hun his love is like the wind. When dealing the wind at times you may be able to feel it, but those typical movements eventually blend in with all your other surroundings and then you don't really feel it anymore. Can you really wait much longer until his love just explodes for you like when the wind is blowing so strong it feels as if you are going to blow away.

He is able to make you smile and laugh and at the same time he is able to make you cry. Unfortunely he does it more often than you would like.. whether it is intentional or not is a whole different story. However, his kisses make you smile and just want to kiss him a zillion more times after that. Those kisses truthfully words are not able to describe your feelinsg.

Here you have a couple different guys who want to be with you. Who are willing to treat you well. Then there is Tick who always promises to do things and he says he'll get something and he really wants to be that guy, but he's not. Then you sit around and wonder why you aren't good enough or what is stopping him.. and you answer... HIMSELF!


Don't you think you deserve someone who will actually apply themselves. Yes, he has put up with a lot from you, but you have dealt with a lot of crap from him. Hell he got drunk going to a concert and someone who is suppose to be a friend grinded up against him. He forgot to get you boxes when you were moving but he remember to get that same friend boxes for when she moved. And the worst part is she is FAT and doesn't know how the fuck to clean her damn body. I mean she has dirt stains along with a smell.

You deserve a guy who will treat you like a "princess" or someone who puts you first.

-Myself




Ugh! I am so drained. Maybe later this will get finished.